I work around the clock, sharing my code stats frequently, and lately, I often receive comments like:
- there’s nothing you are working on that can get you working 18 hours out of 24.
- you probably fake the stats
okay let me spill because this has been the only way I’ve been dealing with my impostor syndrome, in the last 9 months
- developed Submmunity( released v1 & v2) and loupp.
- worked solo on up to 7 freelance full stack projects and more than 50 bug fixing freelance projects for an agency.
- used/learnt new tech stacks (react native, livewire and volt, bash, typescript, C) and currently learning rust.
- released my first 2 packages for laravel.
And tons, all within the space of a year, I must say writing this makes me realize how far I’ve pushed myself
This all started 2022 when I bumped into twitter tech community.
I felt so much impostor syndrome that I couldn't think properly. I only as at then mastered HTML, CSS, PHP, Vanilla JavaScript, a bit of jQuery, and some Laravel. I was also with a company, which I quit after two months because I wasn't sure if it was what I really wanted.
This feeling wouldn’t just go away, I needed to do something and given my history/past life it was more difficult.
I still feel like I imposter though. But until I’m able to beat this feeling, my only option still remains to build and of course stay alive and healthy
This was just a rant and yea, my coding stats have drastically reduced from 80hrs+ hrs weekly to -40hrs and that’s cause I’m facing burnouts and lil illness here and there while anticipating loupp launch.
Currently working something exciting that I would share soon, the name is Quavi
Might talk about my real tech journey one of these days and of course, the past life I’ve always talked about ;)